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January 31, 2008

Searching for Life

Filed under: Uncategorized — jjtrenka @ 2:00 pm

How hard it is not to retype the entire book and post it here, since I think anyone who is interested in truth, justice, and reconciliation for families that have been separated should read this amazing book. But we don’t want to violate the rights of authors by circulating their work for free… So, please run out and buy this simply amazing, wonderful, and inspiring book by Rita Arditti.

Searching for Life: The Grandmothers of the Plaza de Mayo and the Disappeared Children of Argentina

Here’s just one short quote that spoke to me as those of us in Seoul are preparing to unleash, perhaps within a month, something for the history books (stay tuned for that!)

The concept of “psychosocial trauma” developed by Ignacio Martin-Baro can help us understand the restitution process. He believed that when an injury that affects people has been produced, nourished, and maintained through a certain set of social relations, then individual solutions are not effective. The social context responsible for the injury has to be taken into account. A new “social contract” to heal the trauma is needed, incorporating individual and sociopolitcal factors into the equation. In the case of the disappeared children, their loss of identity represents a trauma affecting not only their individual lives but also their relationship with society. For this relationship to be restored, the social distortions that took place need to be exposed. Restitution brings into focus the trauma’s social dimension, as it it provides the wider context for each individual story. Truth and justice must be part of the picture, if the children are to construct a meaningful future for themselves as individuals and as members of society.

January 30, 2008

Australia to apologize to Aborigines

Filed under: Uncategorized — jjtrenka @ 7:54 pm

Australia will issue its first formal apology to the country’s indigenous people next month, a senior minister said Wednesday, a milestone that could ease tensions with a minority once subjected to policies including the removal of mixed-blood children from families on the premise that their race was doomed.

The Feb. 13 apology to the so-called “stolen generation” of Aborigines will be the first item of business for the new Parliament, Indigenous Affairs Minister Jenny Macklin said. Prime Minister Kevin Rudd, whose Labor Party won November elections, had promised to push for an apology, which has been debated in Australia for years.

“The apology will be made on behalf of the Australian government and does not attribute guilt to the current generation of Australian people,” Macklin said in a statement.

Macklin and Rudd have previously ruled out financial compensation for the impoverished minority, and Macklin did not mention that subject Wednesday. But she said she sought broad input on the wording of the apology, which she hoped would signal the beginning of a new relationship between Australia and the impoverished minority.

“Once we establish this respect, the government can work with indigenous communities to improve services aimed at closing the 17-year life expectancy gap between indigenous and non-indigenous Australians,” she said.

Australia’s original inhabitants, Aborigines number about 450,000 among a population of 21 million. Aborigines are the poorest ethnic group in Australia and are most likely to be jailed, unemployed and illiterate.

Australia has had a decade-long debate about how best to acknowledge Aborigines who were affected by a string of 20th century policies that separated mixed-blood Aboriginal children from their families — the cohort frequently referred to as Australia’s stolen generation.

From 1910 until the 1970s, around 100,000 mostly mixed-blood Aboriginal children were taken from their parents under state and federal laws based on a premise that Aborigines were a doomed race and saving the children was a humane alternative.

A national inquiry in 1997 found that many children taken from their families suffered long-term psychological effects stemming from the loss of family and culture.

The inquiry recommended that state and federal authorities apologize and compensate those removed from their families. But then-Prime Minister John Howard steadfastly refused to do either, saying his government should not be held responsible for the policies of former officials.

January 26, 2008

Festen

Filed under: Uncategorized — jjtrenka @ 11:57 am

Watched an amazing Danish film last night called Festen, which I won’t spoil for you, but if you want to read more about it, you can click here.

It was the first time I’ve ever heard white people speaking Danish! I thought that only adopted Koreans spoke Danish (as well as French, Swedish, Norwegian, Dutch, German and Italian) — ha ha that’s what living among adoptees does to you. If I ever meet an ethnic Dane from Denmark, s/he’ll be like a character in a movie to me.

Anyway, Festen is the best movie I’ve seen for a really long time, and I confess that I watch a movie almost every day. What it really made me think about is how families will try often try to maintain a good appearance, even to themselves, when actually everything is completely screwed up. Elements in the movie portraying this wealthy family include classism, racism, incest, complicity on the part of mothers, domestic violence, etc. Things can be completely screwed up right underneath everybody’s nose and everybody knows it, yet there is something that makes people want to just keep the status quo as it is and disturb nothing, no matter who pays the price for everyone else ignoring what is going on. Ultimately it is the truth-teller who is scapegoated and who people accuse of being crazy. (Actually, it’s everyone else who’s crazy.)
The movie is incredibly complex, which is why I’m probably able to overlay my own concerns onto it — you could probably overlay any human concern onto it. Of course I thought about how people act in international adoption and how almost everybody is just trying to keep the status quo going, even though what is happening is completely screwed up at the world level and also sometimes on the family level, and how almost everybody’s trying their hardest to ignore that. The people who tell the truth are the ones who end up tied to a tree during dinner parties.

OK, that probably didn’t make any sense to you, so now you’ll have to watch it!

January 23, 2008

All I have to offer

Filed under: Uncategorized — jjtrenka @ 12:11 am

I had one of my thrice-weekly conversations with my sister, again. There is a lot I want to say to Korean society after I have my talks with her. I’m not writing this in Korean now, so I guess I’m just putting this here for myself. But I wish Korean people could read it.
Hi Koreans.

I’m an overseas adoptee. Yeah, I’m originally Korean. KOREAN. I said I’m KOREAN. Yes, I’m adopted. It doesn’t matter where I grew up. What matters is that I live in Korea now. I speak English well, you got that right. Yes, I found my mother. She died. My dad is dead too.
I work in a company. Yes, it can be tiring, but overall I like it. I like living in Korea. Oh, you’ve been overseas too?
No, I don’t want to go back to America. Because I like living here better. Yeah, I know Korea is expensive. I live in a little 10-pyeong room. It’s so small I’m ashamed to show my family because I know they’ll say it’s dap-dap hae and they’ll worry about me.

Yeah, it’s crazy isn’t it? Droves of Koreans trying to get out of the country as fast as they can, and all these adoptees coming back and living in tiny rooms just to live in Korea and eat triangle kimbab out of GS25 for a month. Just to live in Korea and breathe the Seoul air that you complain about.
I can eat spicy food. Sure I can eat the kimchi. I don’t have a favorite Korean food, but I don’t see that as an affront to my Korean-ness. Though I never take Korean-ness for granted. Or having a Korean family — I certainly never take that for granted.

You wonder why I like Korea so much. But I wonder why you hate Korea so much.

Oh, because you think Korean people are greedy and selfish? Because people care only about their own families? Because the rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer? Because the place is corrupt and everything is too expensive?
Sure, I suppose if you really think that Koreans are completely without ethics, compassion, and humanity, I can see why you want to leave here.

I could see why you hate this place so much if you think the people around you are completely hopeless.

But I don’t hate this place. I don’t hate you. I don’t hate me.

So why am I so angry?

Because I know we can do better than we are right now.

I know that we are human beings who have the capability to care about one another. I believe that we can and we should, and I will hold my expectations of you and this country so high that you will never again be ashamed to say that you’re Korean when you go overseas.

What I mean by that is, I know you’re worried about your safety if you live overseas, like you want to, because you know that other people think you’re greedy and selfish and closed too. So maybe there’s a reason for that, but I don’t think we have to conceptualize ourselves like that forever. So before we start spreading that around overseas, why don’t we tend to our own nest at home? I think those of us adoptees who feel perpetually homeless know how important having a home is.

Maybe you feel hopeless, like Korea can’t be fixed, but I don’t believe that. I have great faith in what this country can do. Just look at how much you’ve already achieved. I’m proud of you. And for that reason, I will always challenge you to be as great as you can be.

You want to flee and I am going to dig my heels in and ask you to stay here and fight with me. We all deserve better. We all deserve to believe in the best parts of ourselves — sharing, truth, dignity, taking care of each other. We deserve to feel like humans and not greedy animals just scraping and digging for ourselves. We deserve to feel like a part of a community and a country. We all deserve a home to come back to so we can rest.
I know Korea is the land of bribes but we adoptees haven’t anything to bribe you with. As for me, I’m living in student housing at the age of 36, pretty much any gyopo has better Korean language skills and cross-cultural skills than I do, I went to a college you’ve never heard of, and I was raised by a factory worker and his wife. In 8th grade I realized I was never going to go to college unless I found my own way, so I studied hard and scholarshipped my way through my education 100%. I have used food stamps, and I was on public medical assistance while I worked my way through college to pay the rent. I know that’s not what you think adoption is supposed to get people, that’s my non-Ivy League, blue collar American reality. (I don’t know what they told you about adoption, but it seems like you’re surprised.)

So the only thing I have for you is my belief — in the very core of my being — that Korea can be a better place. I believe that Korean people can step up to the challenge. I believe Korean men can take responsibility for their children, and I believe that no matter how selfish and stingy you think your own countrymen are, there are enough caring people who can change Korea so you can hold your head high and be just as proud to be Korean as I am, no matter where you go in the world.

Maybe it is blind stupid optimism or naivete, but I’ve heard love is like that.

Please don’t tell me that Korea is not ready to change its social system, because it already is. Please don’t limit your imagination to self-Orientalizing stereotypes. Maybe you’d love to be a Westerner or even be white, but if adoptees can’t be white, you certainly can’t either. Believe me, I’ve been trained in whiteness. But I think it’s good enough to be Korean — especially if you take the steps to turn Korea into the place that you want to live.

I am the lowest of the low in Korean society. My body was bought on a sliding scale for between $400-$800. Being sold will probably steal your humanity away from you faster than anything. But although this happened to me, and although I am sometimes treated like a monster in Korea, I believe in my own humanity. And I believe in your humanity.

Despite having been sent away from Korea, I can see what is good and noble in about it. I can see what is generous and innovative in you. I saw parts shining so clearly and brightly that I came all this way to join you again. I see that we can build a bright future together. I can see the best part of you. I hope you’ll see that too. The mirror that is reflecting your image back to you, through my heart, is all I have to offer.

January 18, 2008

Truth and Reconciliation Commission in Korea

Filed under: Contemporary S. Korea, Resistance — jjtrenka @ 9:41 pm

Two adopted Koreans (Ross Oke and me) doing voiceovers for Korea’s Truth and Reconciliation Commisssion.

Movie:

http://www.jinsil.go.kr/English/inc/media/media.html

Web site:

http://www.jinsil.go.kr/English/index.asp

 You know what is the next logical step ….

http://www.jinsil.go.kr/English/index.asp

January 12, 2008

Holt spam

Filed under: Uncategorized — jjtrenka @ 1:33 am

WordPress has this neat function that catches comment spam and puts it in a separate place.

Look who I got spam from today — with a link straight to a site promoting international adoption. Does anybody still want to dispute whether this a consumer-driven business?

Do I prefer the Asian porn spam, the buy-a-foreign-bride spam, or the buy-a-foreign-baby spam? Hm… tough call. They should put together some kind of package deal for certain people — a lot of money could be made. More cross-marketing, people! Reduce those logistics costs!! Work with me here!!!
holt international adoption agency | searchonlinechild.info/adoption-agency-international/love-basket-international-adoption-agency | IP: 72.249.79.39

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January 10, 2008

My sister is awesome

Filed under: Uncategorized — jjtrenka @ 11:46 pm

For the past few weeks, I’ve been spending about 4-6 hours a week in a language exchange — with my Korean sister. I stop by her house on my way to work.

It’s probably one of the best things I’ve ever done. I am SO thankful. Really, I could just cry, I am that thankful. My heart is so full. (And I have the cutest 2-year-old nephew who LOVES ME.)

I found out that since we made this time to just sit down and talk, we can talk about almost anything, despite neither one of us being even close to fluent in each other’s language. It is a matter of patience and wanting to communicate.
She’s two years younger than I am, meaning my mom was pregnant with her in Korea right about the time my adoption was finalized in the U.S.

She’s been telling me a lot about how she grew up.  I hear a lot about my mom and her hardships in Korean society and how my sisters grew up. Really, it was horrible. Like you can’t even imagine how horrible and for how long it was horrible, the were so poor… Sometimes on my way to work I cry thinking about how we all paid such a terrible price for being different in places where different people are just not welcome. That’s the Korean society and rural Minnesota aspect…

We also talk about politics and whatever else is on our minds. Today we talked about North Korea and how she was “brainwashed” (she used that word, in Korean) at school into believing that all communists were bad, and all communists lived in North Korea.  She was surprised to learn later that there are communists all over the world! ha ha ha

As it turns out, my sister also likes to write. I think that’s cool.  I hope she writes a book one day. I didn’t tell her that yet.

Also, do you know how when people cook, their food always looks somewhat the same? For instance, my American sister’s food all sort of has that same look. It’s something about presentation or the way they use a knife. Weirdly enough, my Korean sister’s cooking has the SAME LOOK that my American sister’s cooking has, although neither one of them has any idea how to cook each other’s dishes. Anyway, I think that’s cool too.

Something that I’ve learned that has been a huge relief is that my sister hates the same things that I hate about Korean society. I will not make this a bitch-fest, but those who’ve lived in Korea or know people who have lived here probably know what I’m talking about….

So our mutual annoyance with certain aspects of Korean culture is very affirming to me. That’s because I always second-guess myself about making negative judgements on Korean society, because I know I am looking at Korean society with Western eyes.  But GOLLY my sister thinks all the same things suck and SHE’S KOREAN. So I’m glad we have some cross-cultural agreement. The patriarchy universally sucks (along with other things like narrow-minded Korean people who judge my sister even today because she didn’t go to college, etc. Jerks.). I could go on but I shan’t.

Hooray!  All three of us sisters here miss our mom so much and wish she were here. Our mom was so poor for so long that we all really long to spoil her rotten now. She would only wear fur coats and eat the best food, never ride public transportation and never work another day in her life! We’d take her on vacations and show her just how much fun life can be.

January 5, 2008

Korean reaction to Korean adoptee scandals in Hong Kong and U.S.

Filed under: Uncategorized — jjtrenka @ 8:24 pm

Props to Daewon Wenger for orchestrating everything and getting this online. Despite a couple of inaccuracies, it’s nice that they even bothered to interview critical adult adoptees.  Can you imagine that happening on a major network morning news show in the U.S.?

MBC 생방송 오늘 아침 2008-01-03 (목)

Korean Newsweek

Filed under: Adoptees in S. Korea — jjtrenka @ 8:21 pm

newsweek-korea.pdf

Props to Arun Dohle for getting this into pdf form. My bad translation of the title is something like “Is adoption for the benefit of children or parents? Korean children adopted overseas for 50 years, investigation into the actual conditions is needed after the fact, but the government doesn’t care.”

In Zimbabwe, dissent wears the mask of theater

Filed under: Uncategorized — jjtrenka @ 8:18 pm
This article reminds me of what I’ve been told about the role of theater in South Korea’s democracy movement. “Invisible Theater” sounds like a great tactic to talk about adoption in Seoul’s subways.
  Creative protest
Tsvangirayi Mukwazhi / For The Times
CREATIVE PROTEST: Police arrested Anthony Tongani, left, and Silvanos Mudzvova at the premiere of their play satirizing President Robert Mugabe. The two were charged with inciting revolt.
A rich culture of protest theater flourishes in the country, despite the constant risk of censorship or arrest from President Mugabe’s regime.
By Robyn Dixon, Los Angeles Times Staff Writer
November 19, 2007
HARARE, Zimbabwe — The stage was a small room in the Harare Central Police Station. The audience, about 20 bored policemen and plainclothes intelligence officers.The two actors were shaking, not with stage fright but the real thing. Anthony Tongani stammered and forgot his lines. Silvanos Mudzvova was so afraid that he didn’t dare make a mistake.

They stumbled to the end. Then they were ordered to start again.

And again.

They performed their political satire, “The Final Push,” 12 times in two days at the station, while police and officers from the feared Central Intelligence Organization argued over what charges to press against the actors and fired questions about who had funded the show.

“The first time, the officer in charge was not there. When he came, he demanded his own performance. Then the superintendent came, and he demanded his own performance,” Mudzvova said. “It got worse when the CIO came in. One of them was actually sleeping during the performance. Then he’d wake up and say, ‘Are you through?’ “

A rich culture of protest theater has sprung up in Zimbabwe, but artists are under increasing pressure from President Robert Mugabe’s security forces as he crushes dissent. In recent years, most independent newspapers have been shut down, opposition parties have been infiltrated by CIO spies, and activists have been arrested, beaten and sometimes killed. The 2002 Public Order and Security Act bans political meetings of more than two people without police permission, outlaws statements that incite “public disorder” and makes it an offense to insult the president.

Mudzvova and Tongani were arrested at the premiere of “The Final Push” in late September. Tongani was arrested before he could take his final bow, and Mudzvova immediately after taking his.

The play, written by Mudzvova, is about the chairman of a building called Liberty House (a thinly disguised Mugabe) and his political challenger (presumed to be opposition leader Morgan Tsvangirai) trapped together in an elevator during a power failure. At one point, the two duke it out in a boxing match.

In Zimbabwe’s repressive climate, artists and actors find creative ways to protest. People crowd into clubs to drink beer and laugh at stand-up comedy poking fun at Zimbabwe’s problems. They turn out for the opening nights of political plays, even though police often raid theaters and close productions before the first lines are spoken.

Zimbabwe’s underground arts culture is thriving, taking hard-hitting political messages to the masses in the crowded black townships, the engines of their cars running in case they need to make a quick escape from the authorities. Filmmakers recently secretly shot an underground movie based on a banned political play in Harare, the capital.

The two nights Mudzvova and Tongani spent in custody had elements of the kind of surreal political play in which they might perform. Police laughed in all the right places, especially when the chairman gets knocked out by his opponent. But the CIO men were outraged.

“The CIO guys tried to convince the police that we were actually talking about the president being knocked down,” Mudzvova recounted in an interview the day after his release. “But the police did not see it in that way. To them it was just a simple, straightforward story.

“The police did not know what to do with us. But the CIO kept insisting that we be charged. The question was, with what?”

In the end, Mudzvova and Tongani were charged with inciting the masses to revolt, a statute that carries a 20-year penalty. Twice, police modified the charges, first to criminal nuisance, and then breach of the censorship laws.

Mudzvova says that with media freedom hobbled, it is up to artists to take a message of protest to Zimbabweans.

“Artists, like everybody else, fear for their lives. But the moment you have that fear, you won’t get anywhere. People are saying, ‘If you guys have that fear, where are we going to get the correct information from?’ “

The night after their release, the two men were back onstage in the small circular Theatre in the Park, modeled on an African hut, in Harare. But they modified the script to satisfy the CIO: The knockout in the boxing scene was gone. A day later, after debate with colleagues and actors, they restored the scene, without drawing further visits from the police.

An unlikely career

Bulawayo-based satirist Cont Mhlanga grew up in a village with no theatrical tradition. His father expected him to be a farmer. Mhlanga didn’t intend to become an actor, because he didn’t even know what it was.

Even today in Zimbabwe, the idea of a career in the theater is unthinkable for most people. It is seen as a last resort for beggars and failures, people incapable of producing something real to eat or sell.

He was introduced to theater by accident when a group wanted to hold a drama workshop in the hall where Mhlanga practiced karate. “I said, ‘What is theater?’ ” But he joined in, got hooked and has been writing political satire since Zimbabwe won independence from Britain in 1980.

Stepping into Mhlanga’s cluttered Bulawayo office is like visiting the inside of an inspired but chaotic mind, crammed with yard-high stacks of books, yellowing newspapers and scripts, drafts of his latest protest letter to the government, and pieces of old broken, unidentifiable equipment, with a sleek laptop basking happily in the middle of it all.

Wiry, with piercing eyes, he speaks in a tumble of words. He does not look old but declines to give his age, shrugging scornfully at the question.

“Everyone around here calls me Grandfather,” he said dryly.

His plays are so bluntly political that he and his actors frequently get into trouble.

In May, the officer-in-charge at Bulawayo Central Police Station went through Mhlanga’s play about AIDS, “Everyday Soldier,” deleting lines with a red pen, offended because one character disappears as part of the plot.

“He said, ‘You can’t have this because you are implying that people disappear in Zimbabwe.’ I said, ‘I’m not going to remove the lines. It will play as it is.’ He said, ‘It will not play as it is. I’ll close it down.’ “

He did prevent public presentation of the play, but Mhlanga found a way around it: “We started to run the play for closed audiences. We just make sure there are no police in the audience.”

Mhlanga’s latest play, “The Good President,” inspired by beatings and arrests of opposition members in March, was shut down on opening night in June, and riot police surrounded the theater for a week to prevent the actors from staging the play.

To evade arrest or censorship, artists run underground projects. Mhlanga invented what he calls Invisible Theater in bars, trains and the commuter minibuses called taxis.

In Invisible Theater, several actors plant themselves in a group and improvise a conversation.

“People don’t know they’re actors. The dialogue might be: ‘This government is terrible. Look at those kids in the street. They should be in school but they’re carrying water.’ Then another actor will say, ‘Don’t start with that. You’ll get us all beaten. There are CIO guys everywhere.’ Then a third actor will say, ‘The way we’re living in this country is more than a beating.’

“Then other people will join in,” he said, referring to the unsuspecting people around them. “The actors will keep directing the conversation, and the moment they think they’ve made a point, they will get off the taxi and get onto another one.

“The thing we are challenging is fear, because we know that people are afraid of discussing these things in public.”

‘Hit-and-run’ shows

In Harare, a theater organization named Savanna Trust does “hit-and-run” street performances in volatile areas such as Mashonaland West, where actors risk arrest by police or violence from ruling party thugs.

They’re designed to reach people in poor, crowded neighborhoods who otherwise would never see theater. The performance must be quick, sharp and funny, and the actors ready for a quick getaway.

“When you do hit-and-run theater, you beat drums and the people gather. You have a car there with the motor running,” Mudzvova said. “Your heart is beating very fast. You are full of fear that you are going to be arrested at any minute. You know the exact message that you want to give. You make sure the people get the message in the shortest time. As soon as you see that people are getting the message, you disappear.

“Afterwards the actors go, ‘Phew! That was extreme!’

“We escaped by a whisker in Bindura,” he said, referring to a stronghold of the ruling party. “We only escaped because the car we had was far more powerful than the car the police had.”

Mudzvova is not the only one producing controversial material. The low-budget underground film “Super Patriots and Morons,” produced by British-trained Zimbabwean actor Daves Guzha, was filmed secretly over nine days in Harare. It includes real scenes of Harare street life, bread queues and crushing poverty.

Filming without permission is banned in Zimbabwe, and the filmmakers, questioned by police while they were working, were lucky to escape arrest.

The film’s portrait of an isolated, paranoid president haunted by dreams of a bloody hangman’s rope is unlikely to hit cinema screens in Zimbabwe. The best its makers can hope for is mass production of DVDs that could be distributed free. But there is no money for that, so the film’s future is unclear.

The director, Tawanda Gunda Mumpengo, is critical of what he sees as self-censorship by artists terrified of arrest and violence.

“It’s up to us as citizens of this country to demand our freedoms if we feel they are being curtailed and to assert ourselves,” he said, “because no one will do it for us.”

In his jumbled office, Mhlanga gestured at the mountains of papers around him, the fruit of 27 years of labor. “No one will shut me up,” he said. “There’s only one option to shut me up and that’s to kill me. But they can’t kill what I stand for.”

robyn.dixon@latimes.com

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